You know, when i saw siuping's blog on weird feelings and all.
It dawned upon me that damn, i think we designers or weird creative people have overly active minds. I think tooooooo much nowadays for my own good too.
As you know, I have not been the in the best of health these days and it really made me extremely uncomfortable at times. So much so that i wake up in the middle cos i cant breathe properly.
yes, that's what asthma feels like if you ask me.
I keep thinking, when im old, I really dont want to die of asthma.
It is THE WORST EVER FEELING ONE CAN FEEL
I want NOT TO SUFFER from asthma when im old
I HAVE TO BE HEALTHY NOW NOW NOW.
Yes, i think and think, omg, what will happen when im old!
THE THOUGHT OF BEING OLD AND WEAK SCARES ME
im not sure if there's a phobia to it.
But after one horrible night suffering from this terrible scary illness.
I keep it in my heart and mind and keep thinking about it.
When i was visiting my grandma while she was in the hospital that day,i saw an old lady, think she had alot of phelgm. she was too weak to cough it out that it took quite an amount of effort before the phelgm came out.
SCARES ME ALOT.
because right at this very moment im typing this, im recovering from a flu and phelgm in my throat ( alittle left) and i think, what if im old and like that?
I dont want that feeling. I HATTTTEE that feeling.
and then, i made a resolution to be healthy and all.
I really do want to keep that.
I tell some people about it like my sis, she says that im thinking too much.
BUT, when you're actually FEELING that phelgm in throat feel and all,
IT"S THE FEELING!, IT"S THERE!! im not thinking about it!
just 2 nights ago, i sat up in my room while my chest thighten around me and told myself,
I AM OKAY, MY CHEST IS FINE, I CONTROL MY MIND.
It worked to make me not think about it.
BUT
at 5am, i woke up feeling that same horrible feeling.
with no one around to comfort me, i just had to tough it up and wait till that feeling subsides.
this may be the longest entry ever! But i have kept this long long long inside.
Im scared to sleep at 9pm nap time even if i doze off too tired from the day because i recall that one day where it all started all these nonsense weak health thing with the worst ever feeling i can ever feel.
Now you guys know why im always so cautious and eating fish soup and not eating fried stuff and drinking hot tea and being all so ever healthy.
I know it's not a nice feeling. I HATE IT
BUT EVERYTIME IM OKAY,
i will forget it.
THEN IT COMES TO HAUNT ME AGAIN.
My resolution, Im being healthy me again man!
i might need a little re adjusment to get me back
But i'll be fine, i'll be fine.
Mayb i can make good use of my over active mind!
I can make many ads.HAHA
Crowbar2009, D&AD, here i come!
TO FEEL WHAT I FEEL, READ BELOW
(CAUTION, YOU MAY FEEL HORRID)
(CAUTION, YOU MAY FEEL HORRID)
(CAUTION, YOU MAY FEEL HORRID)
IF AT ANY ONE TIME YOU FEEL THAT FEELING.
PLEASE STOP READING!!!!!
IF AT ANY ONE TIME YOU FEEL THAT FEELING.
PLEASE STOP READING!!!!!
IF AT ANY ONE TIME YOU FEEL THAT FEELING.
PLEASE STOP READING!!!!!
okay,i may backfire on myself for thinking about the feeling.
But here goes nothing..
IMAGINE THIS.
your chest tightens up, it's very tight, you start to breathe heavily.
YOU try! Moreover, Your nose is block! Little air is coming thru your nose!
it's as though someone is holding your nose and giving you little air!
You open your mouth, but it's sore and dry it's never been like this before, you try to gasp for breathe but there's something STUCK in your throat, you try to cough it out. YOU CANT
It's there, it's like a hole with no entrance, you breathe more heavily like you just ran 2.4km in your fastest pace and yet your nose is block. Your throat is stuck.
You breathe with that little breathe you can take.
You lie down, BUT it's worst! you take even more deeper breathe, you sit up.
You start to perspire. cold sweat. Your face feels numb with a tingling sensation, your hand turns cold, it's numb also. You just hope it passes but it gets worst. It's night time and though you know you are verrry tired as you have not slept for days, you cant sleep!
You eyes are heavy yet your body tells you you need air!
the bolster you hug isnt giving you comfort, it's choking you!
The pillow doesnt give you support, it's making your chest tighter like someone is hugging you really tightly!..
...let's end this..im imagining it now. DAMMN!
A rough idea how it's like
It dawned upon me that damn, i think we designers or weird creative people have overly active minds. I think tooooooo much nowadays for my own good too.
As you know, I have not been the in the best of health these days and it really made me extremely uncomfortable at times. So much so that i wake up in the middle cos i cant breathe properly.
yes, that's what asthma feels like if you ask me.
I keep thinking, when im old, I really dont want to die of asthma.
It is THE WORST EVER FEELING ONE CAN FEEL
I want NOT TO SUFFER from asthma when im old
I HAVE TO BE HEALTHY NOW NOW NOW.
Yes, i think and think, omg, what will happen when im old!
THE THOUGHT OF BEING OLD AND WEAK SCARES ME
im not sure if there's a phobia to it.
But after one horrible night suffering from this terrible scary illness.
I keep it in my heart and mind and keep thinking about it.
When i was visiting my grandma while she was in the hospital that day,i saw an old lady, think she had alot of phelgm. she was too weak to cough it out that it took quite an amount of effort before the phelgm came out.
SCARES ME ALOT.
because right at this very moment im typing this, im recovering from a flu and phelgm in my throat ( alittle left) and i think, what if im old and like that?
I dont want that feeling. I HATTTTEE that feeling.
and then, i made a resolution to be healthy and all.
I really do want to keep that.
I tell some people about it like my sis, she says that im thinking too much.
BUT, when you're actually FEELING that phelgm in throat feel and all,
IT"S THE FEELING!, IT"S THERE!! im not thinking about it!
just 2 nights ago, i sat up in my room while my chest thighten around me and told myself,
I AM OKAY, MY CHEST IS FINE, I CONTROL MY MIND.
It worked to make me not think about it.
BUT
at 5am, i woke up feeling that same horrible feeling.
with no one around to comfort me, i just had to tough it up and wait till that feeling subsides.
this may be the longest entry ever! But i have kept this long long long inside.
Im scared to sleep at 9pm nap time even if i doze off too tired from the day because i recall that one day where it all started all these nonsense weak health thing with the worst ever feeling i can ever feel.
Now you guys know why im always so cautious and eating fish soup and not eating fried stuff and drinking hot tea and being all so ever healthy.
I know it's not a nice feeling. I HATE IT
BUT EVERYTIME IM OKAY,
i will forget it.
THEN IT COMES TO HAUNT ME AGAIN.
My resolution, Im being healthy me again man!
i might need a little re adjusment to get me back
But i'll be fine, i'll be fine.
Mayb i can make good use of my over active mind!
I can make many ads.HAHA
Crowbar2009, D&AD, here i come!
TO FEEL WHAT I FEEL, READ BELOW
(CAUTION, YOU MAY FEEL HORRID)
(CAUTION, YOU MAY FEEL HORRID)
(CAUTION, YOU MAY FEEL HORRID)
IF AT ANY ONE TIME YOU FEEL THAT FEELING.
PLEASE STOP READING!!!!!
IF AT ANY ONE TIME YOU FEEL THAT FEELING.
PLEASE STOP READING!!!!!
IF AT ANY ONE TIME YOU FEEL THAT FEELING.
PLEASE STOP READING!!!!!
okay,i may backfire on myself for thinking about the feeling.
But here goes nothing..
IMAGINE THIS.
your chest tightens up, it's very tight, you start to breathe heavily.
YOU try! Moreover, Your nose is block! Little air is coming thru your nose!
it's as though someone is holding your nose and giving you little air!
You open your mouth, but it's sore and dry it's never been like this before, you try to gasp for breathe but there's something STUCK in your throat, you try to cough it out. YOU CANT
It's there, it's like a hole with no entrance, you breathe more heavily like you just ran 2.4km in your fastest pace and yet your nose is block. Your throat is stuck.
You breathe with that little breathe you can take.
You lie down, BUT it's worst! you take even more deeper breathe, you sit up.
You start to perspire. cold sweat. Your face feels numb with a tingling sensation, your hand turns cold, it's numb also. You just hope it passes but it gets worst. It's night time and though you know you are verrry tired as you have not slept for days, you cant sleep!
You eyes are heavy yet your body tells you you need air!
the bolster you hug isnt giving you comfort, it's choking you!
The pillow doesnt give you support, it's making your chest tighter like someone is hugging you really tightly!..
...let's end this..im imagining it now. DAMMN!
A rough idea how it's like
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